I am 32 years old. Growing up I had a full family, there were sometimes scandals between my parents, but probably like everyone else. But I still remember it very well.
I did well in school and got a higher education. From the age of 22 up to now I had 6 different jobs and I managed to make problems everywhere – I did not cope with my work, so I gave up and instead of getting myself together and fixing everything, I cheated and ran away. It was the same thing every time.
Two years ago, because of my worthlessness and problems at work, I tried to kill myself, but I was saved.
Two years have passed and this situation is happening again. I am having problems at work again and am thinking about quitting my life. With my head I understand that this is not an option and that my death will bring much grief to my parents and my son (he is 7 years old), but I see no way out. My parents do not know anything about it, and how to tell them that I messed up again and ispovedi.com destroyed, I can not, I am very scared. I’m a complete disappointment. And instead of pulling myself together, I just stopped doing anything, I don’t even have the energy to wash and clean the house (I’m sitting with my son on sick leave right now). The only thing I can do is somehow feed my son.
I wrote a letter of resignation and left it with the boss (without seeing anyone). It is very embarrassing to show up at work and I can’t even talk to my boss on the phone. I am just hiding from everyone.
What will happen next, I do not even know. I don’t understand why good people die and I am still alive. I so want to go to sleep and not wake up.
How to tell my parents about everything I can’t even imagine.
I want to disappear and make everyone forget about me, as if I never existed.
